*J.a.n.i.c.e* wants to be loVed

Sunday, February 20, 2005

aGeS eVeR siNcE i hAvE bEeEn uPdAtiNg mY bLoG... eVeRy siNgLe dAy pAsSeD mE bY aNd iT sEeMs nOrMaL bUt yEt sO nOt nOrMaL... wAt eXaCtLy iS hApPeNiNg tO mE... pRobLeMs cAmE tO mE oN n oFf... n mY tEmPeR sEeMeD tO hAvE fOuNd iT wAy "hOmE" bAcK tO mE... i dUn wiSh fOr aNytHiNG sPeCiaL bUt jUz hOpE tAt i cAn pAsS eVeRy siNgLe dAy gReaTlY... bUt rEcEntLy tHiNgS rEaLlY aReNt tAt gOoD, fiRsTlY wAs sO sTrEsS bOuT mY ICA pRojEcT aNd i diN gEt mUch sLeEp aNd thIs hAs aLrEaDy cAuSeD mE tO bE mOoDy aT tiMeS... nExT iS tAt aFtEr puTtiNg iN sO mUch hArD woRk eFfoRt iN mY pW, a gReaT diSapPoiNtmeTn hiT mY sO hArD tAt i nV tHouGhT i wOuLd eVeR gEt iT, mY gRouP diN mAnAgE tO fiNiSh pReSeNtiNg ouR woRk... haizZ... tHe nExT thiNg iS tAT hAD a qUaRrEL wiF oNe oF mY gRouP mEmBEr... fLaRe uP!!! tAt wAs a dAmN bAd dAy... i diN eVeN bOtHeReD tO dO mUCh duRinG tHe diScUsSiOn... fRaNkLy sPeAkiNg i aM rEalLy vEry diSaPpoiNtEd wiF mY gRouP mEmBeRs... "sHe" wAntEd tO cLeAr tHinGs wiF mE bUt i dUn sEeM tO bOthEr cOs i m sTiLl iN "hIgH bOiLiNg pOiNt"... aFtEr tAt wE diN tAlk tO eAcH otHeR... i pResUmE tAt mOsT oF mY cLaSsMatES kNow tAt tHeRe iS a fiGhT bEtWeEn uS cOs aT tAT pOiNT oF tHeM wE wErE aLl hAviNG gRouP diScUsSiOn iN tHe liBraRy... fReNs aSkED mE wAt hAPpeNeD... siLeNcE kEpT mE aWaY fRom tHeM bUt tHey kEpT pEsTeRiNg mE... WHY??!! oNe oF mY fReN tOlD mE tO giVe n tAkE aT tiMeS, wHeN i sAw tAt, iT rEaLLy mAke mE wAnTeD tO fLaRe bUt i tRiEd tO cOntRoL mYsElf... i wAs wOndEriNg wAt u kNow abOut bEtWeEn uS... iF u dUnNo wAt eXaCtLy hApPEnEd dUn mAke IT tAt u KnOW eVeRythinG n tRiEd tO cOnsOlE mE... i dUn liK tAt... thE moRe u aSk n aSk, iT maKeS mE fEeL liK u aLl dUn bEliEvE mE aT alL, wAteVer iT iS, u aLl thInkS tAt iTs mY fAuLt... mY fReN cAlLeD mE, 'pErSoN' kEpT pESTerInG mE tO tElL wAt haPpeneD buT i kNeW tAt hE aLrEaDy kNeW cOs 'sHe' sHouLd hAvE aLrEaDy tElL 'pErSon'... i rEalLy hAtE tAt mAn... y mUsT eVerYthiNg aLso tElL pEoPlE, dUn u kNow wAt iS sEcReT... iT iS nOt oNce Tat hAs hAppEneD aLreAdy... iT oCcUrReD a fEw tiMES buT i jUz dUn wAnNa voIcE iT... tHroUghToUT tHE cOnvErsAtiOn, siLeNcE rEaLly sTriKe mE cOs i duN thInK tAt tHerE wiLl bE mUch To sAy aT aLl... i rEalLy wAnTeD tO fORgEt tHiS iNcIdEnCe bUt u aLl kepT mAkiNg mE rEmMbEr iT dEePeR n dEePeR... yYy?? y dO thIs tO mE... i kNOw u aLl cOncErN bOuT mE buT dUn pUsH mE tO tHe eNd oF tHe cLifF... cOs i mIghT hAtE u... wEnT to sKoOl thE neXt dAY, kEpT siLeNcE fOR tHe iNciDeNcE tat hAppENeD cOS i duN think tAt tHEre iS mUch To sAY aT alL... tat 'pErsOn' kEpT kEePiNg aN eYe oN mE... nO eYe cOntAcT fRoM mE tO tAt 'PeRsOn'... tAT vEry eVeNinG, hAs a sKoOl eVeNt sO aMbAsSadoRiaL hAs tO bE oN dUty.... i wAs iNvoLvEd, i gOt eVeRyThiNg oFf mY miNd sO tAt i cAn cOncEntRaTe oN mY duTy n pUt oN a sMiLe... =) iT wAs a gReAt eVeNiNG aFteR aLl, dUrinG iNtervaLs gEt tO cAtCh tAlkS wiF mY tEaM mAtEs aNd wE hAd gReaT tAlkS, eVeN hAd "eNgLiSh" lEsSoN... iT wAs quIeT lAtE aFtEr tAt eVeNt, tiNg tIng bF gAvE mE a liFe hOmE, tHanz lOts... n mY paReNtS wAiTinG fOr mE aT tHe vOid... iT wAs tHis vErY dAy i hAd a "fIgHt" wiF uUu... bAd tHinGs folLoWeD oN oNe bY oNE n tHe gOod tiMeS wErE sHorT... a bLiNk oF thE eYe n iTs gOnE... wAt a wAsTe... aRe gOoD tiMeS aRe hArD tO cAptUre n bE rEmEmbErEd??... iF tiMe cAn sTop i wOuLD wAn iT tO sToP aT thE gOod tiMeS i Had... wAt i hAd tO sAy i aLreAdy sAiD tO uUu... mAyBe u mAy fiNd mE uNrEaSoNaBlE fOr thIngS tAt i hAvE dOnE... uR tEmPeR sOmEtiMeS gAvE mE pReSsUrE tAt wHeN tHiNGs hApPEn i dUnno wHetHeR tO teLl uUu nOt oR eVeN wHeN i M gOiNg sOmEwHeRe oR doInG soMethInGs... sAtUrDaY wAs a viSitIng dAy tO rElAtiVeS hOuSe... diN sTaYeD lOnG cOs gOt a cOupLe oF pLaCe tO gO... lAsT pLaCe wAs tO cC'S hOuSe... pLaYeD wiF dAiSy... "sHe" lOok sO diFfErEnT iN hEr nEw "haiRcUt" bUt stiLl aS hUgGaBlE aS bEfOrE... pLaYeD ''dA dI" aNd cHaT aRounD... wEnT hOmE aRouNd 10 pLuS... wEnT onLiNe aNd sLaCk, pLaYeD gAmeS tiLl 12 pLUs... cHaNgE mY fRieNdsTer pRoFiLe... fElT sO tiReD, mY eYeS aRe sO hEaVy.... wEnt tO bEd aNd hAD a fRuiTfUl sLeEp wiThoUt hAvInG tO thInk oFf aNytHing... wOkE uP 11 pLus tHiS mORniNg... diD sTudYinG fOr my aSsEsSmEnT nExT wEeK... aRgH! aTe mY bRuNcH aNd cAmE oNliNe... bRowEsIng tHrU fRienDsTer aNd dEciDEd tO uPdAtE mY bLoG wHiCh iS gRoWiNg mOuLds sOoN... tHis pOsT iS rEaLly lOnG... cOmbInAtiOn oF a fEw dAys tOgeTheR bUt sOmEtImEs jUz dUn hAvE tHe mOoD tO bLoG on... wiLl eVeRyThiNg bE aLriGht fOR thIs gEr??!! [sHe iS goInG tO oUtbReAk tHe fReEdOm oNcE aGaIn, wiLl shE bE aBlE tO mAkE iT??]

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