*J.a.n.i.c.e* wants to be loVed

Sunday, May 29, 2005

thinking thinking thinking!!! i m sitting right in front of the com trying to do something but my brain seems not working... it seems to be drifting to somewhere... thinking about something tat i shouldnt think... but yet i will always think about it... WHY!!!! ARGH!!! why is it always lik tat?? i wanted to do something but yet in the end i wont be doing it... y is this so? wat is the solution to it?? right now i m turning on the player listening to "yi sHi dE mEi hAo" bY zHaN sHao hAn... the lyrics is so sad tat i felt lik crying but i held my tears back [control]... juz lik today i m suppose to do something but i broke my promise... i also din noe y i m doing so... felt so confused... is there anyone out there to tell me y? i seem to be living in the 'world of thinking'... sometimes juz feel lik go to the beach, standing on the rocks and shout out my heart... shout everything out so tat i need not think so much... it seems lik every mintues every second when i m free doing nothin i will start to think!!! m i crazy??? or should i go see a psychatrist?? m i suffering from anything?? lik depression??? oh no... [relac] blasting songs so tat i will stop thinking... SIANZ!!!! recently dunno y i feel so tired... slept so much but still tired... n at night keep on waking up... m i sufferning from insomia?? haha... there i go thinking again... haha... hmmm... i missing skool already... i wished to go back asap... hmmm... juz went out to accompany my mum and aunts for lunch and walked around lor... saw bobby long time no see... he starting skool tml lor... all the best to u huh... =) nothin much for today... yesterday night went to Changi Airport wif my daddy, brother and nephew to have dinner... ate swensen's... yumyum!! not bad the food but we queue for around 1/2 hour to get the seats and 1/2 for our food to arrive... but cannot blame la... A LOT OF PPL!!!! after food ate icecream... we ordered a regular earthquake... yumyum... and there is this flavour taste so yucky... my dad say it taste lik 'xiao qiang'... yucks... disgusting lor... after dinner we went to see aeroplanes... a lot of landing yesterday... then we went to take pix around... crazy right... signaporeans taking photos in singapore airport... siao... haha... went home around 10 plus... tat's all bah...

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