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Saturday, September 24, 2005

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mY pRodUctiOn oF mEmOriEs

juz finished doing up my new blogskin...
yes! its still RAINBOW... but its a different layout.. its SPLATTERED RAINBOW
i dunno y i choose this but i juz lik this skin

today was a boring day... simply juz go to skool for a 2 hour lesson *bored*
headed home then
played wif my baobei, ate ice-cream, bathe n do my cross-stitch
n he pee on me again.. *gAwD*
after slacking around, went to eat dinner then came back online to slakc
then started doing my blogskin lor
afternoon as i was readin thru my email, i came across a mail sent by my fren which i think is very meaningful..

the email by my fren:
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag >of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a >nail into the back of the fence.
The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few >weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. "A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.
Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you >to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always >want to open their hearts to us."

well readers, after reading this email, wat r ur comments... i really think tat it is very meaningful... its juz like the phrase said "A VERBAL WOUND IS AS BAD AS A PHYSICAL ONE." words said are not able to be taken back... juz lik stabbing someone, even if the person is to recover there will still be a wound.. leaving her a memory of the pain she once had.. juz lik me i had a scar on my palm n whenever i see it i will remember "tat" day when i fell...
the wound on me remind as it is... those words really stab me right thru the heart and it is where i get to learnt who are TRUELY my REAL FRIENDS... i nv wil forget them [those words].. a fren of mine said to me to "TAKE IT EASY".. BUT... have he wonder if such thing were to happen on him?? will he be able to do it as wat he told me?? to me i cant... nv will i... cos i will remember the tears tat i cried...

anyway, i really wanna thanz my buddies [JiaLing, Yuz & Liz] for standing by me when i really need someone... thanz guys... n i will sure to be there for u guys definately.. i think tat r wat FREN ARE FOR..

now i really think tat things arent really lik before anymore.. haizZzz... recently many things happened... everytime as i recall of THOSE WORDS, it really hurt my heart... alright i think i better stop all those things..

oh ya, i actually promised someone to help him celebrate for his birthday but i didnt do it then i also said tat mayb i could replaced him a celebration during the weekend... but... i went to his blog... a new change [new blogskin], fotos uploaded, wishlist, blog post, etc... i guess he must be very happy on his birthday bah... the fotos had shown already... n also thru the blogpost i read... n i was thinking mayb got me no me celebrate for him also doesnt matter bah... n so i told him i was not going to celebrate for him le... cos i was thinking his family his fren all do something to help him celebrate.. his frens got buy him cake la etc... me??? i didnt prepare anything... so i think it doesnt make a difference also if got me to celebrate for him or not.

sometimes i really wondered y r so many things happening.. so differently in different situations... as i sat at my table listening to the songs which i haven been hearing for quite sometime.. when i listen n read the lyris.. tears flood my tears [i held back].. i listened n pictures flashing in my mind... the lyrics are so... making people cry... *gAwd* the songs by A1, i nv thought they were so nice until i really listened full-heartedly looking at the lyrics... [shit la, headache since afternoon]
i m thinking now wat my tml programme will be?? erm... mayb it will be a slacking day rotting at home... or mayb i shall start doing my individual ICA liao... and also do some studying for my upcoming test...
really hope tat the weekends can pass faster n i can go to skool n be wif my frens where i wont think of anything n i can sit there n wait for them to cheer me up by singing me a song... LOL... [luvee u guys so much].. =) Monday monday monday!!!! *aRgH* i wanna c the rainbow!!! the rain in my life!!!!

i think it will be tat's all for today bah... tat's alot liao... anyway, take care peEps n enjoy ur weekend... mayb this poor little ger will be mugging at home... LOL... joking la.. take care... mizz ya guys...

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