*J.a.n.i.c.e* wants to be loVed

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

i m falling sick... is it due to the long hours of night shift?? or is it due to the lack of sleep??
having cough and flu... *cough cough*

once again i felt lik 大哭一场... just dunno what is going on to me... always feeling something bothering me inside... having this thought of drowning myself in water so that i wouldnt have to think so much... suppositely to meet my cousin to go for a swim this morning but she couldnt make it... didnt wanna go alone and i just am too lazy to drag myself out of bed...
我想哭可是就使哭不出来...
突然好想去一个安静的地放，自己一个人...

left with 12 more days to end of PRCP... everyday i am hoping that tml will be the end of attachment... i am just dreading to go for attachment every single day... i think i am beinging to dislike attachment (or to be exact nursing)... but sometimes i felt tat i lik it... (its just confusing me) i need to make a choice soon... should i or should i not... to br frank nursing aint really what i wan... but dunno y at that point of time i choose it... mayb cos i have no other choices... blame it on myself for not studying hard and do well for Os... but come to think of it, if i hadnt gone into nursing to study, i wouldnt have experiences so much of obstacles that i had gone thru these 3 years... and i wouldnt have met my dearie frens... and most importantly, i wouldnt have gone to cartel to work and met those great frens (family) of mine... mayb its just all fate... just hope that these 12 days passed peacefully... *PRAY*
anyway, officially finished my night shift already... it aint as bad as i first thought of heard from my frens... mayb i shall count myself luckily... my last night wasnt that peaceful, think is that SN who is sway bah... cos heard from my HCA that everytime when she is one shift she is ALWAYS very BUSY... and she is really busy.. whole night working non-stop... well, i offered to help her but she turned down... so what can i do.. i have already done my part... =>

突然回想曾经有人问过我 - '你了解你自己吗?'
听了这个问题真的让我停顿，想了一想...
说真的，我不能说我很了解自己... （你们呢？？都了解自己吗?）

你们知道什么是'知己'吗？
知己就好像是情同手足的好朋友一样,什么事都摊开来说,你的事他都知道,他的事你都知道...
真羡慕那些能找到知己的, 你们要好好珍惜... 知己不是很容易就能找到的...
我呢, 应该不会这么容易找到我的知己吧... 被伤过的心很难复原...

有人也问过我 - '你觉得你自己是个怎样的人?'
我也停顿了一下...
我是觉得我是个曼随和的人吧... 怎么说自己别人有可能不是这样看你...

真希望能马上飞出国, 去游玩, 至少没那么多的烦恼...

那一瞬间好像又浮现了，可是又好像慢慢的在消失了...
这到底是什么感觉????

*猪公主* ;