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Friday, May 11, 2007

it seems lik blogger haven recover from the mess...
however, i m able to see the wonderful colours in my blog... its has been quite sometime since i m able to see the skin of my blog... all i can see is black and white... but now i m able to see the colourful blog of mine...

but... the colourfulness doesnt seem to be in me...
my life seems to be screw-ed up and its not full of colours...
不知道为什么心里好像闷闷的...
总觉得自己好像越来越~~不开心~~...
yesterday after listening to the song 我可以, ~~大哭了一场~~...
it all happens are talking to "u"... 不是要怪你害我哭，而是每次跟你说话后都回想你对我说的话...
你每次都在问我的想法，不是不告诉你而是不想给你一个不确定的答案... 这你能了解吗？
我的感受你们谁能够了解... ....
就如你说的，我不懂得表达自己... 这让我觉得我好像越来越不像我自己...
你说我很静，那是因为我不知要怎样开口... 就好像每次和你说话都在弄你不开心这样...
从前那吵闹，开心的我好像渐渐的消失了... 《怎样才能找回“她”呢？？》
觉得有时候就算说了什么都不代表会有人在听有人了解...
就这样我选择了‘宁静’，什么都不说...
一个人沉默...

today someone ask me this question "为什么你每次都这么开心?"
this makes me think... m i really happy???
i dunno think so... it might be just a mask that i wears everyday to face ppl... but still wanna thanz to those ppl who sometimes really make me feel happy... =)

met up with cc after work today to go for hair styling... was talking and suddenly brought up of the past... feels lik the伤口have open... making me feel slightly hurt... sometimes, it really makes me wonder... what are frens for??? i m someone who treat frens very important... i think they r those who makes up ur life great... but now, when i think of this question... i will think twice or even thrice... r frens really that what i think?? 在一些朋友的眼里我好像已经烟一样消失在空气中了... 难道我就这样比不上‘他们’吗? 我就那么不值得你去珍惜吗?
朋友没几个是了解你的... 朋友没几个是关系你的... 这一切我都感受到了...

its just lik what "u" have said: 做人真难...
做人真得很累，很累...

我只想每一天都过得开开心心，可以吗？？
~~帮我呼唤以前的我~~

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